Rant #1, I AM STILL SEARCHING FOR AN EFFING APARTMENT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Seriously? That's all I have to say. I've interviewed for 2 other part time music jobs and, of course, did not get them so I am thinking that music teaching is not in the cards for me right now. It's frustrating and disheartening b/c I'm fully qualified. I just don't know what they are looking for exactly. That's okay at least I've got CYT. I need a full time job if I am going to make it and I'm just at a loss b/c I don't know anything other than teaching and office work bores me to tears. I just want to perform and teach and I can't because I'm barely surviving and worrying myself sick about how I'm gonna pay rent or buy groceries. It's not a fun place to be and I'm so homesick. I'm getting so many wrinkles and crying so many tears. Actually, I try to pretend it's all okay and fight back tears rather than let them out. And let's face it...I'm naive. I am growing up at age 33 when I should have grown up at 23.
Rant #2, I hate doing laundry at the Laundromat! It makes me a really mean person and my blood boils when I go. People are ridiculous, don't say excuse me and the one item of clothing that falls on the floor every time is my underwear! GROSS!!!! Of course it couldn't be my tank tops or my jeans it has to be the most delicate, personal item of clothing. I need to start doing those in the sink or something. Also, I went one time and they didn't have quarters for change. What? Who doesn't have quarters for change at a freaking laundromat.
Rant #3, Mouth Noises. I always get stuck sitting next to people who make the grossest noises. I could be sitting on an almost empty subway car and the person next to me will make sucking noises or will smack their gum and I just want to run away. It doesn't even have to be in a subway car, it can be in Starbucks at the community table and someone will sit across from me and go to town! Why were people not taught to keep their mouths closed and noises to themselves! I'm just sayin', or maybe I'm just ultra sensitive to the sound b/c I hate it so much.
Rant #4, It's very simple. During rush hour on the subway MOVE TO THE CENTER SO PEOPLE CAN GET ON THE TRAIN and have something to hold onto!
Okay that's how I really feel about things. I know it's not a very positive attitude but that's the reality of New York. You take the good with the bad or as many people say "It is what it is."
Rave #1 I love my acting class. My teacher is brilliant, I love the people and it has been so fun.
Rave #2 I love my job at Anthropologie which is surprising because it's a retail job and so busy and crazy. But a midst the hustle and bustle it's actually quite laid back and I love that. Not to mention the clothing is gorgeous. Too bad I can't buy any of it even with the awesome discount I get.
Rave # 3, I LIVE IN NYC!!! Even though I rant about small things I have to remember to soak in the city every once in a while. As I left my acting class one night my partner was walking with his face up to the sky. I asked what he was doing and he stopped and said "Crystal, you have to look up every once in a while and remember that you live in this amazing city." That's perspective for you and the end of my rants and raves.
Love,
Miss Gulley in Manhattan
(This was written at the beginning of December)
